Own Your Mistakes! It Will Free You!
Everyone makes mistakes. Whether these mistakes are big or small the key is owning up to your role and accepting your consequences. I am not telling you this because it sounds good or because I heard someone else say it. I lived it. I recently took to Twitter and told my story.
A Thread A Lesson An Experience https://t.co/wKyZglKan1
— Keisha (@KeishaAdinkra) October 11, 2017
Now I’ll give you the more in-depth version.
Often times we struggle with acceptance. We want things to be different, we imagine another ending, a better ending. That’s okay! The problem arises when we aren’t willing to accept the role that our own choices, decisions, and actions play in what becomes our life. After all, life can easily be summed up to a series of choices and the consequences of those choices right? If you were so kind as to read my Twitter thread you already know that I made some poor choices and was dealt some serious consequences.
At first I honestly didn’t want to admit that I had done anything wrong. I was starring at this face, my face in the mirror every morning yet I was blaming any and everyone else for my own actions. I literally drove myself into depression because I refused to own my mistakes.
First, I blamed others I told myself that what I had done wasn’t such a big deal and the people involved were overreacting. I unleashed a furry of disrespect on another human who wasn’t deserving yet I found a way to blame him. So I sat in a state of denial that eventually turned into the worst battle with depression that I have every experienced. I did not want to do anything but lay there and project blame, self pity, and negativity. I went through hair loss, acne which turned into acne scaring, and very unhealthy weight loss. It felt like it lasted an eternity it felt like it was never going to end.
If I had not gotten counseling it is possible that I would still be stuck in that state. Counseling opened my eyes to a lot of things. First and foremost I opened my eyes to the power of counseling and therapy. The perception of mental health issues in the Black/AA community. My warped sense of entitlement and selfish behaviors.
During my counseling sessions I learned to view life through a new set of eyes! No lie it was life changing. I can’t give all the credit to the Psychologist. I did have an amazing support system via a close friend. He poured a lot of wisdom and encouragement into my spirit and for that I am forever grateful.
It was not until reaching this point of acceptance that I was able to reach the point of forgiveness and lift myself out of depression. Acceptance of my actions and forgiving myself for those actions. Now with that also came accepting the consequences that I was given. That was probably the hardest part of the journey but I made it! I believe that I will still reach my destiny and that the universe/God will guide me to it. The directions may have changed but the destination is still Greatness!
In closing, just be aware of your actions. Weigh the consequences before you act. Ensure that you are willing to accept the worst case scenario based on these consequences. Be easy.